I Want To Be Happy

I didn't realise that it's been one month since I declared Our Happy Corner defunct... ONLY. It's just one month?? It sure felt much longer than that... more like 3 months. Hmmm.

I am unhappy. And angry. And tired. I hate myself for being in this condition. I hate that I'm in a foul mood so often. Too often. I don't want to be angry and tired and unhappy. I'm tired of being angry and tired and unhappy. I want to be happy.

Since July 31, my life has become like shit. Work is my life, my life is work. Sums it all. Work is shit. So if you put that into the equation, the result is: my life is shit. I don't like to use this word, but there is really no appropriate euphemism for this circumstance.

I am not stressed. I am just pek cek. Frustrated. I don't like to be frustrated. I want to be happy.

I have even removed my beloved Cheer concert collage

from my laptop wallpaper and replaced it with one of Ah Guo's creations:

I love this picture. The little girl seems so carefree. I want to be relaxed just like her. Looking at this picture makes me feel peaceful. I have also removed the photo of Ah Wei and me on my phone wallpaper and replaced it with this picture. I want to be at peace with myself, with others, and with everything around me. I want to be happy.

I want to be happy. Such a simple wish. Such a tough achievement.