About The Boy

如果我们有缘走上红地毯，他应该会穿着 No. 1 uniform 和我一同经历 sword ceremony。幸好，这份荣耀不属于我。一晚的表面风光难补一生的实际将就。

就像天气突然从晴天转为长命雨一样，他的态度也如此地大变。

出国之前，他在给我的email中写道：
"Want to tell you that, altho its just a short 1-mth of being together, it seems to me that we have known each other for a very long time?... I like the way you smile and when you are happy and cheerful... I like it when you open up and talk about things to me. ... I just hope that we can try to make things go a long way. So let's continue to put in effort and make things even better ya."

当他在国外时，我曾发了这么一则简讯给他：
“地球不会因为生离死别而停止转动；太阳不会因为悲欢离合而终止升落。时间是不会为谁而停顿的。等你回来时，我们算在一起近两个月了，不过实际相处只不过是之前的一个月而已。不是在埋怨，而是在嘲笑状况的无奈。”

时间确实是不会为谁而停顿的，但时钟的时针却会停止跳动。就在他回国的那个清晨，我家大厅的时钟竟然不走了。后知后觉的想法：Was that a sign?

回国后的他，不知何故，竟然玩失踪！简讯不回，电话不接。究竟发生了什么事？Your guess is as good as mine: 不知道！困惑、不解、一头雾水。就算发生了什么天大的事，也应该可以谈一谈、说清楚的吧？No, 他连和我见个面、说句话的时间都吝啬。

本来约好星期五见面 (but dunno where, dunno when, he's supposed to confirm with me, but never did)，却在当天5.04pm收到他的简讯："can we jus talk over msn 2nite? my car at service centre n i dun feel like goin anywhere". Harlow!!?? We're supposed to be in a relationship and we haven't even met since he got back, and now I get THIS??

很显然的，he doesn't want me in his life anymore. Fine. 要分手也该说一声嘛，不是吗？But, no! This guy does not even respect me enough to properly initiate a breakup!

我想，什么话都不必多说了。虽然我不赞成sms分手，不过对于这种没品德的人，我们也无需以高尚的方法应付，so I replied him with this sms:
"It is apparent that you have no intention of communicating sincerely with me anymore. So I believe this is the end of our relationship."

Guess what, there's been no response from him! He doesn't even bother to acknowledge his intentions which I had to "verbalise" for him!?

To think that this was a person who considered himself my clone! "in terms of 想法、说法、做法、性格、看法、作风 etc etc..." OMG! Pui! He was right though, he's got a clone, not in me definitely, but he's the exact clone of my ex!

早该相信我的直觉。当我第一次有 deja vu 的感觉时，我就该悬崖勒马。不过我偏偏就是不信邪！友人也说，不能光看表面，只是巧合罢了。Deja vu 接二连三发生，直到连分手的这个episode也给我见怪不怪。原来，有些人事是可以只看表面的，挖空了也找不到内涵，因为内涵根本不纯在。

算了，明知墙硬还要拿头皮撞墙，幸好只是碰了一下，没撞到头破血流，只是觉得自己做了一件蠢事，一笑置之，生活依旧。

现在，我只是要他还我我心爱的张悬《My life will...》专辑 ！！

坏的不去，好的不来！The Best Is Yet To Come!